The Black Book

In the Chinese calendar, 2010 is 'Year of the Tiger'. Fortune tellers predict great fortune and luck for all those who believe the mystery of Chinese zodiac. Let us see if everything sails smoothly. Black Book? what's the title for? well, yeah! I am planning to buy one beautiful notebook, one which is Black in color and one which cannot be accessed right away by just anyone (where can i find one that has a lock and key?)- but of course a Black Book with white pages (black inked pen is cheaper than those metallic pens for dark papers). What am I going to do with my Black Book? oh well, isn't it nice to keep track the memories of your hatred, depressoh moments, and furious rage about something and on someone?

I am going to start taking down notes on how i feel bad for this or that day, who are in the scenario and the core problem. This way I may be able to understand myself fully, the persons involve and know how to resolve the core problem. This way, I may be able to change or lessen my flaws and mistakes. This way I may be able to understand the world, the purpose of living, the essence of happiness, the importance of loving others amidst miseries they plague me. And, this way I may be able to weigh-out if I had to consult a witch to just put curse on those I hate (this isn't going nice).

For this year 2010, whether it is the 'Year of the Tiger' or 'Year of the Platypus' every sadness, every misery, every difficulty, every rage, every tear, every desperation, lack of inspiration, dead-end motivation and hateful situations will be accounted for on my Black Book (don't worry Black Book I will give justice to your pages).

A Loyal Lover (part I)

How do we gauge loyalty towards our object of affection? Is it the way we treat her or him? Is it the way we delicately select and string sweet words for her or his ears to listen? By being fair and honest all the way, everyday? By thinking of him or her from sunrise to sunset or dusk until dawn? Through phone calls or e-mails? Or not looking at other beautiful individuals of the opposite sex?

This cute love story was shared to me by my friend whose undying affection of 'his' beloved continues to dwell in his soul. Let us call this man, Nathan. Nathan met a simple and homely girl in high school. He was shy and she was friendly. Of all the male classmates they had in class, this girl chose to talk with Nathan. She asked for this and he replied for that. They became close and was teased by their classnates. Nathan began thinking if this girl felt something for him. He was too scared to ask nor confess about the 'feelings' thing. Soon after they exchanged contact numbers. Nathan was confused whether to hang on to such elusive feeling. Indecisive of what to do, he contained his feelings to himself and kept mum.

College years came, she had to study there and he here. Nathan's high school friend became the girls classmate and soon enough became her close friend. She forgot to call Nathan for six months. And he began to worry. Days and weeks passed, he could no longer tame his anxiety and opted to dial her number. On the other side, she learned to trust Nathan's friend and preferred to be with him. With this, Nathan felt alarmed his friend might took the 'apple of his eye' away...